Not So Patiently Waiting.

Okay, I have come to the conclusion that this is gonna be a long 10 (now 7) days before the beta. I keep trying to picture that little marshmallow settling into its new home, and im praying it is.

I think the IVF/Surrogacy wait is more difficult than my own. For one, I know its in there. What are you doing little buddy?! For two, its something I really want to happen for a couple that has waited long enough. I spoke with IM this morning to check in on her. She said she is excited as well. She added that it was reassuring to her to see me so calm during the transfer. She is not nervous. Makes me happy. I am feeling well.

So if you ask me how I'm doing, I'd have to say anxious, hopeful, excited and ready to be in the know. To know its staying. We have exactly seven days until BETA. Until then, my mind will be going many different directions. As always, I ask you for prayers for this little miracle to stick.

Transfer Day!

Today was FINALLY the big day. After getting to the clinic yesterday and them telling us we were waiting one more day, we made it. I know my IP's were worried about the quality of the eggs after that, so we wanted more info.

Today I showed up and things in the office were way more laid back. It was so busy in there yesterday. Anyhow, as I was waiting I signed into skype chat to get in contact with F&C. They were anxious. We chatted a few then I was called back. I changed and sat waiting for the doctor. When he came in I turned on the video so they could be present at this appointment. Here is the background:

We got 40 or so eggs from the donor. 22 made it to fertilization. And as of today, we were left with just one embryo. This wasn't the news we were expecting. The donor eggs were not good quality, and she cannot donate again (obviously). Anyhow, so we have our one sweet embryo. Doctor said its not the best he's seen, but we still have hope that this one is gonna stick and grow nice and strong.

I put the camera on the screen for the ultrasound, and we saw the embryo being transferred to its temporary home. Hopefully it is snuggling in for its stay over the next 9 months. My fingers are crossed for us all, I want more than anything, for this baby to stick for them. So please pray for that!! There is still hope for this embie! And I'm confident it's gonna grow perfectly.

Next up is BETA on the 30th. A blood test to check my hormone levels. We are hoping for a number greater than 100 and for that to double by next check. This will confirm pregnancy.

I thank you all for you well wishes, good thoughts and prayers. On to the next step!

The Plan

I made it. Transfer is officially this coming Monday, January 20th. This weekend we will be heading to California. I am beyond excited to finally be here.

Don't know all the details yet, but I start progesterone injections tomorrow alongside the delestrogen injections. Friday I'll be doing both, yikes. (delestrogen is every three days vs every day for progesterone). I'm getting nervous about that part. Daily shots. I hope I can get used to this. I sure haven't yet. But so far so good.

I have a friend I met through my awesome circle facebook group, who has the exact same cycle calendar as me, and we have the same transfer date and time. It's nice that there is someone else going through this with me at the same time. She's a sweet girl and I hope this works for us both first try. I look forward to see her there too.

Some people have been asking how I feel. I'm excited. Ready. I've had plenty of time to prepare and I'm feeling confident in everything. The only nervous feelings I have are in regards to the shots, and getting negative beta (blood test post transfer to confirm pregnancy). I don't want my IP's to have any more let downs. But I keep saying we've been through our lows, and it's all up from there.

So that's that! I'll be updating along the way so keep on the lookout here! I'm to arrive with a half full bladder, we will transfer (one sweet little embryo) and I'll have bed rest for 24-36 hours. I'm looking forward to movies and room service! Prayers for a sticky baby are appreciated!


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Grade A++

We did it! My lining this month was even better than the mock. Pretty sure going to my appt today my BP was pretty high. I was so nervous! For nothing.....

Went first to get my blood drawn. Quick, easy and in and out. Drove to the hospital where my local monitoring clinic is/will be. They are great there too. Anyhow things went fantastic. I had a great tech, who was quite talkative this time, so I didn't have the quiet nerves like last time.  She first saw the TRIPLE STRIPE, which is a really good thing. Here is an example. I meant to ask for a photo of it, but forgot. So I found this one online. The red line shows the outer contour of the uterus, and the triple striped uterine lining in green. And my lining was 11-12 mm. She said it was a beautiful uterus. Nice and thick. Makes for a good cozy home for their embryo!

Waiting now for the clinic to get all the reports from my exam today, and hear about the donors appt as well. We are so close now. I will begin progesterone this week, but will get official word here soon. Whooooo hooooo! Spoke with C briefly this am to let her in on the news, and she is very excited as well! 

Now to wait for the next step. Thanks for following along our journey!

Getting Close!

Remember this guy? Well, he's back! LOL.

Tomorrow is my lining check before we head out to LA! You know what that means. I need your prayers, that my lining is just as awesome as it was at the mock ultrasound. Looking for 8 but hoping for 10 again!

The injections are going well still. It is a pretty small amount of medication, but that will soon change when I begin the progesterone. I hear about so many people getting painful lumps, I pray it all goes well on my {rear} end. Hahaha.

Anyhow, keeping this short and sweet. We should have and official transfer date VERY soon. I think we are about one week out. Praying for success all around! Squeal!

Overcome Fear!

Well I did my second injection today. I told Joe to mentally prepare himself this morning, because the original plan was to have him give it to me. 12:30 rolled around and I started to prepare things.

Y'all would have loved to be flies on the wall watching us. We handed that needle back and fourth several times. He was really nervous, which made me even more nervous, so I told him to back off and I was gonna do it haha. Sarah counted to three for me....about 10 times lol. Finally she said 3....2....1  and I did it. Went in nice and smooth, and everything was perfect. That needle is long, that was the scary part to me. But seriously, it was pretty easy. Dang nerves!

Next time should go much more smooth, less freaking out on my part. Maybe we will only have to count to three, five times. Maybe lol. It is still nerve wrecking. Anyhow, this needle-phobe jumped a big hurdle today. The end result is worth  every part of this journey so far!

First Injection Today!

Well today was the big day! I've been watching YouTube videos like a crazy person on people doing these delestrogen injections. Some people stab it in, some people do a slower darting motion, and some crazies (lol) gently press it in. Some ice before, some heat before - and the list goes on. All I knew for sure was to warm the med up first in my bra or something, then apply heat and massage post injection - since it is oil based, it would help avoid lumps and soreness.

While I know I need to learn to do it myself, as I'm sure there will come a day I don't have help, I needed reassurance from someone today haha. I was so afraid of the pain. So I text my friend Ashley who is a nurse to see if she was available to give me this first shot. She came over about 1:00 and we got right down to business. She demonstrated for Joe so he could do the next shots (if needed).





She did so awesome. I was so worked up for nothing! I barely felt anything. I'm confident in the future shots, as long as we don't hesitate and I end up having to be poked twice haha. So Ashley, if you read this, thank you so very much, again, for all your help! Next one comes Sunday.

By the way for those wondering, I did no prep to the injection site (no heat or ice) prior. Just warmed the delestrogen up in my bra prior to injection. Afterward, I massaged it with a warm cloth and sat on a warm pack for a bit. So far no pain. Yay! Seems to be a good "system" so far.

Here's to fluffing up my lining again! And a very Happy New Year to you all!!


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